I can empathize...

http://www.alonelylife.com/showthread.php?tid=4210&page=1

I want to kill myself, I just can't take it much longer
I can't stand this life, can't stand my life. I have live for 20 years in self-isolation. I can't take this much longer. Society remind me off how lonely I am. I see groups of people all the time, and it make me feel like shit. At night I can't even sleep, I wet my bed with tears. I can't sit or sleep still, I feel sick. I keep dreaming of white girls, I want them in my arm, I want to hold their hand and kiss them.

I been in an accident last year that almost cost me my life, and I really wish it did. Why am I still alive? I could have die and be at peace.

I could be a white fat tall guy and get laid every night. I could be a complete jerk and A-hole and I would get all the white girls I want. Unfortunately the only white girls that like me are online and are either in different state or another country, and country music is not enough to keep me alive or sane. Because once I realize who sing it, it make me lonely. I just want a white girl, why is it so hard?

I wish I was white, I don't think I am continue living as an Asian male. I can't continue living this lonely. I don't care if I'm good looking or not, I'm still an Asian male that have to deal with a bunch of stereotype.

I don't get it? Why would a girl date an Ass hole just cause he white? I'm Asian, we suppose to be the most popular race of guy cause we treat girl like princess. I don't get it, it too much for me to handle right now. I wish I had a gun right now.

I could be the cutest Asian guy and still can't get those girls, but if I was fat, I have a better chance. I might go crazy one day and starting killing people, mostly white guy I can't stand. Things better change, my dark side is taking over me, and I don't know how long I can become sane or alive. I want to hang myself, run onto ongoing traffic, rape a girl so that I know what sex is like, go on a murder rampage, etc...

I guess I can't help but see things differently. I envy asian men, because all of them can find brides in their home countries. If your dead set on white women, there's always Russia.

Well,
I get what you're saying from the point of view of just wanting a peaceful life. But I cannot control my instincts (much).

I fit the definition of soon to be well to do Asian male. But the only way I think it would work for me (assuming I gave up and got a South Asian wife) would be to physically move there to be away from temptation.

Ardia, I think you just have a craving for what is denied.  You should take a trip to some poor white country and screw lots of prostitutes there and get it out of your system.  Then, with the craving satisfied, you can look at this objectively.

fschmidt wrote

Ardia, I think you just have a craving for what is denied.

Ive considered that. But I do not see how it can be worked out of my system.

fschmidt wrote

Ardia, I think you just have a craving for what is denied.

This also leaves out something very important. Even if 100% true. Best illustrated with an example.

Say a CoAlpha society gets off the ground. And we have sons and daughters etc.
Your sons will get to date my daughters, but my sons wont get to date your daughters. In essence, genetic death for me (the link because it is implicitly assumed important traits are passed on via sons).

Same applies for my life in the west.

Why wouldn't your sons get to date my daughters?  (The obvious reason I see is that my daughters will be older than your sons.)  If the issue is race, then no, this makes no sense.  I don't see why race would matter at all in CoAlpha dating.

fschmidt wrote

Why wouldn't your sons get to date my daughters?  (The obvious reason I see is that my daughters will be older than your sons.)  If the issue is race, then no, this makes no sense.  I don't see why race would matter at all in CoAlpha dating.

Because, by the law of averages, your daughters will be 5'4, my sons will be 5'2... at least to start with.
I didn't mean your daughters specifically. I meant a mixed race coAlpha society.

After all, race is just a statistical average of other factors. Height is one of them.

Height is just one selection factor.  I would hope that CoAlpha daughters would base dating preferences less on physical characteristics than the general population does.  To give an analogy, I think a woman from a strong religious sect would prefer marrying a shorter guy from her sect than a taller guy from the general population.  Maybe you can investigate if this is really true.